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13 December 2015 @ 11:34 pm
Yeah, what is this? A new post! Here! What the heck?!

Well, hi and hi. Yes, I'm using LJ again, as part of a conscious move away from Tumblr with a few others who also feel it's a crappy and stressful platform without essential features that would make using it enjoyable. I know I've made some posts in the past that I was coming back and then didn't, but well, I have been busy and somehow Tumblr always prevailed despite the ridiculous issues. But now I'm about ready to go back to this maybe unpopular, but at least usable platform and my 200+ icons I bought way back when.

So anyway! If you're reading this and still using this site, please do say hi and let's catch up! I have no idea who's still here or not right now, sorry. Remember back in the day when I made a sticky post and dated it forward, thinking it was so far in the future it couldn't possibly be a concern? Well, that date was 3rd December 2015. Joke's on me, but at least now we apparently have a sticky feature. Nice.

Another reason I procrastinated returning here is the fact that there's a lot of old bullshit from the 00s that doesn't sit right with me anymore, but I suppose we can leave that behind and turn over a new leaf. Reassuringly, what I found out in the past several years are pretty nice things. For one, it is possible to move countries. It is possible to find new relationships that completely redefine what seemed good in 2009. It is possible to be trans without either dysphoria or any surgery. These are pretty general statements so who cares if they're public - basically, ignore every terrible emo statement I inflicted on my poor audience here in the past. There's more to life than that and sometimes it helps to get a little "old" and see it.

That said, I do feel old typing this post, like what does this website even look like. But oh well!

Most posts will be friendslocked in the future, with the exception of fics/meta/general public interest stuff. I'm happy to keep existing people and add new if asked. I'm also on hangouts pretty much all the time, so let me know if you want in on that.
pudding: bb open jacketikipud on December 13th, 2015 11:39 pm (UTC)
See you later, instigator: Kojima Approvesoudeteron on December 13th, 2015 11:56 pm (UTC)

Yeah see this whole time I thought "no one" used LJ anymore, but then I actually go and post here and within 30 minutes I get a comment from you when on Tumblr we've been next to each other for ages and never interacted there beyond likes and reblogs. THIS IS WHAT I MEAN. Let's go back to having fun.

How are you omg!!
pudding: bb open jacketikipud on December 14th, 2015 12:06 am (UTC)
YEAH SERIOUSLY. i think i must still have email notifs on for my friend list here. which is pretty handy for moments like this hehe.

honestly tumblr is so intimidating nowadays. i pretty much just stick to reblogging #relatable text posts and #aesthetic shit bc it's too scary actually posting opinions haha... now that I'm like, Known to one of the scary mgs fans who is known for harassment and stalking!!! how nice!!

i seriously miss the ability to friendlock journals on here :<
See you later, instigator: Big Boss/Ocelot - Passionate Fightoudeteron on December 14th, 2015 01:01 am (UTC)
Oooh email notifs, I should turn these on!

I'm not even intimidated per se, it's just that most of the people who supposedly agreed with me on things have either moved on or just stopped engaging in any kind of activism there, and meanwhile I'm STILL just being targeted by reactionaries. They have no argument, no clue about any context whatsoever, no policies aside from "people who are different from me are wrong", and yet they have to poke their heads into every conversation about oppression there is. For instance, the moment I say anything about positive trans representation, truscum are all over my blog. I didn't sign up for this and just reading their gibberish about how ALLLLL trans people must be dysphoric and how I don't "count" is killing my brain cells, let alone responding to it. And then just posting on tumblr becomes a reason to have anxiety, because even if most people know these bigots are objectively wrong, that doesn't make it any nicer to be harassed by them.

Which is a terrible use of my time. I'm literally too old to waste my energy on someone's lack of information, especially when they don't even respond to sources that were good enough to get a Master's with.

pudding: bb open jacketikipud on December 14th, 2015 01:12 am (UTC)
UGH YEAH THIS. if I'm feeling bored I'll just read through all those dumb """arguments""" they leave on ur posts. i imagine replying to all that shit gets real tiring real fast :/

twitter is a pretty decent outlet for personal stuff and fandom talk usually but sometimes u need something more long form haha. i might start posting on lj again if i can make the time for it. and ofc I'll be keeping up with u and che!
See you later, instigator: Nulloudeteron on December 14th, 2015 01:30 am (UTC)
This isn't targeted at you or anyone specifically, but it would help a TON if people ever at least reacted to me arguing with them. But then the main result is that they start harassing the next person too so it's understandable most just stay away. Still, when you feel like it makes no difference how much time you spend debunking this crap and the only outcome is that you've been harassed for hours on end, that's just. Not worth it.

I don't like how short-form twitter is, lol, and it also feels like such a hard-to-follow medium where in a minute you have 50 new posts. Maybe eventually I'll get one for "work reasons" if I can be bothered, but right now my attention span's been messed up enough by tumblr as it is. Anyway, thanks for keeping in touch! And I'm sure no post topic is too small to make. :D
Cherrycherrytruck on December 22nd, 2015 02:39 pm (UTC)
Would it be ok to ask what got you this scary reputation?! I 100% trust you were not doing anything wrong but ironically we've had a reverse situation where someone in the Pokemon fandom got cast out for harassment and stalking, except they fully deserved it since they were literally being like Umbridge. Even so, I did feel like Tumblr became way too hectic and everyone defaults to this passive aggressive tone which I can't get by anymore. I still use it to find some aesthetic stuff and post my works since ironically despite the terrible platform it's where my works get the most recognition.
pudding: bb open jacketikipud on December 22nd, 2015 02:58 pm (UTC)
oh it's not me who's scary it's someone else in the mgs fandom who has stalked and harassed other people and has done gross shit like defend child porn and necrophilia. there was a callout post about her that went around a while back. so i spoke out about how i didn't like that she was pretty much unavoidable in mgs fandom on tumblr and she CAME AND FOUND MY TWITTER JUST TO TELL ME IM WRONG... so yeah. that's kind of. killed some of the buzz for me recently so now i just quietly enjoy stuff on twitter with friends lol
Cherrycherrytruck on December 22nd, 2015 03:51 pm (UTC)
pudding: bb open jacketikipud on December 22nd, 2015 04:20 pm (UTC)
MMMMYEAH... i think she's already been reported for the stalking and harassment but [shrug] tumblr's done fuck all about it lol. lj feels much more cozy by comparison. i like it here
See you later, instigator: Kaz Miller - undressoudeteron on December 23rd, 2015 11:27 pm (UTC)
Yikes, this makes our fandom trolls seem mild. It would be good to know who this is just so I know who to avoid...mind messaging me in private if you're not comfortable here? I'd just hate to accidentally talk to them, lol.
Melmo: cloak and tiemustntgetmy on December 14th, 2015 03:27 am (UTC)

Said it before, said it again: Tumblr may have the popularity now, but it's got nothing on LJ's comment system and sense of community. Also since there's more people there now there's also more bullshit.

Looking forward to seeing regular posts from you again! Been typing into the void for so long that it'll be weird actually communicating with someone, lol.

ETA: Look at me, forgetting my html. That's how you know it's been a super, super long time.

Edited at 2015-12-14 03:28 am (UTC)
See you later, instigator: Wallace - I drink my tea at yououdeteron on December 15th, 2015 01:11 am (UTC)

I honestly hope we're going to collectively move somewhere else soon, because the format [on Tumblr] just...doesn't do it for me, and the more I try to make it work for me the worse it gets. How hard can it be to let people comment!

Well seriously, I checked out your LJ again last night and I think it's amazing how you have such a consistent journalling routine no matter how many people may be reading or not. You're a hero with that keyboard and you know it. An example of dedication to writing for us all.

Haha, I changed my post editor to HTML but will have to get used to it again in these sweet, sweet comments. But that's okay. At least it doesn't lag.

Edited at 2015-12-15 01:11 am (UTC)
Melmo: water earth fire airmustntgetmy on December 15th, 2015 03:24 am (UTC)
I seriously don't understand what the design thought process was with Tumblr. Yes! A social platform where you can't have easy social interactions with other people! Brilliant. WTF.

People will leave eventually. Here's hoping the next ~big thing~ isn't someplace worse.

Awww, thank you. I find it cathartic even if I repeat myself a lot, lol.
See you later, instigator: Caution Sparta (by: SOURCE WANTED)oudeteron on December 15th, 2015 07:47 pm (UTC)
That...honestly sums up the design of Tumblr perfectly. They've even taken away the reply feature now.

I think if there was a clear choice, everyone would already have left Tumblr, but the thing is most people use it because it's become the default site to be on. I've never actually experienced anyone saying "oh yeah, I love using this hell site". Everyone hates it yet there's no direct and still popular alternative. So I can't imagine the next big platform will be worse...unless it's Facebook. Yeesh.

Aww well repeat yourself all you want, it's your party!
Melmo: Hedwig at the endmustntgetmy on December 16th, 2015 03:28 am (UTC)
There'll be something new eventually, I'm sure. And I think designers hate on Facebook (and prob wouldn't want to get sued for copying its format) so hopefully it'll be nothing like that!
See you later, instigator: Old Snake - downcastoudeteron on December 17th, 2015 12:48 am (UTC)
Oh, I meant if people literally gave up and everyone just clustered on Facebook from there on. That would be so bad. It's like a site for that demographic that still hasn't figured out what the internet even is.
Melmo: Harry by Shell Cottagemustntgetmy on December 17th, 2015 03:43 am (UTC)
Ahhh, okay. Yeah, that's very true.
Miss M.: onlinemiss_morland on December 14th, 2015 09:45 pm (UTC)
Welcome back! It's great to hear from you, especially since it sounds like things are going well. :-)
See you later, instigator: History - underwateroudeteron on December 15th, 2015 01:13 am (UTC)
Hey, glad to see you're still around! Will be great to talk again :D I'll get around to posting in a bit more detail when I can, but yeah, things have changed a lot since I last regularly posted here. And that's a good thing.
Cherrycherrytruck on December 21st, 2015 07:59 pm (UTC)
uhhh who is this??? I don't remember adding you mate
See you later, instigator: Genesis - ready to strikeoudeteron on December 21st, 2015 08:49 pm (UTC)
...when you said you left comments, I should have realized you meant TROLLING THE POST as per the established tradition omg. Of course. OF COURSE.
Cherrycherrytruck on December 21st, 2015 09:07 pm (UTC)
hey dont stael my avatars
See you later, instigator: Kojima Approvesoudeteron on December 23rd, 2015 11:28 pm (UTC)