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17 June 2013 @ 12:48 am
aaah I feel like the flakiest flake to ever have flaked  
People. PEOPLE. I've become so bad at this LJ thing that at this point all I expect is for you to kick me, but in case anyone still wants to have anything to do with my sorry ass, please do not hesitate to check here! (And if you follow, let me know who's you unless you have the same username.)

Now. I had a bad case of guilt trip about LJ these past months, irrational as that sounds. Basically...my former method of LJing no longer feels productive to me, blogging the way I used to. I used to mainly need textual introspection (and, accordingly, this blog became more and more private) - but I got progressively more busy with my current uni and freelancing and activism and whatnot, and writing about all those things in that much detail after dealing with them from day to day just started to feel like a chore. So I went over to Tumblr, which operates more along the lines of "post whatever comes to your goddamn mind, silly or deep, short of long, add your commentary or don't, create the post from scratch or add onto something else, no specific format required." This has felt massively beneficial to my random schedule, but also my current state of mind. I still do introspection, but I seldom feel the need to write it coherently out like I usually did here. To be honest, I'm kinda done introspecting about things I could as well say in public and make a difference by saying them outside of a private circle. Tumblr lets you do that, if that's your goal. Tags are easy to track.

The thing is, LJ has been part of my life for a long time, and I started feeling guilty about not posting here. Which, of course, I resolved by avoiding this place, because that's what you do when you have anxiety related to your own blog/writing. And this is where the unintentional asshole part comes in, because even if my writing habits have changed, I've been basically ignoring everyone who hasn't moved to Tumblr. Not to mention every comm here, if they're still even active.

So, if there are still people watching this space, I'm really sorry about disappearing and I still care if you're here. I also seem to have worked out the underlying issue I've had with LJ in the past couple...months, so chances are that I'll start BEING HERE again, even if mostly to comment and sometimes cross-archive things. Definitely not deleting.

yes tl;dr HI FOR REAL?
Miss M.: onlinemiss_morland on June 17th, 2013 11:33 am (UTC)
HIII! Nice to hear from you. :-)

I've been tempted to get a Tumblr myself, since almost all of my current fandom (Les Misérables) is there, but I've refrained because I know it would be a huge timesuck (and also because a lot of the discourse gets on my nerves, tbh). But if it provides you with what you need, I'm glad! And I definitely see the benefit of being able to post short, random things without having to Make A Post about it.
See you later, instigatoroudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:20 pm (UTC)
Hi hi! Late but better than ever; I had my last bit of the semester and didn't log in here again, whoops. /facepalm

It is a huge timesuck, especially when you're like me and not that great at maintaining multiple accounts. But, yeah, I think it does have benefits in addition to the trickier stuff like managing your time. When I get home tired and just scroll through my dashboard, though...it can be so nice to just have a ton of information without needing to do anything more than scroll down. XD
damnfantastic: butterflydamnfantastic on June 17th, 2013 03:17 pm (UTC)
HI 'SUP GLAD YOU'RE NOT DELETING :D also, totally with you re: Tumblr. The only reason I'm kinda back on LJ right now is that I just moved and needed a place to write looooong entries about how fucking stressful everything is, and that I GRADUATED and finally have time to do that again. @____@ Tumblr got me through college though, haha.

--formerly imagines
See you later, instigator: Toshioudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:23 pm (UTC)
AHAHA NO NO I WOULDN'T HAVE THE HEART TO XD Finally adding you now, apologies for my horrible memory! Yeah, I think LJ is more user-friendly when it comes to long text (and privacy settings), which is among the reasons I'm not getting rid of it. Welcome to the graduate club! I'll check your actual entries but I take it you're not doing a bonus round like I am, huh? XD Which I completely understand, because unless you find a super great department and super want to pursue something it might not be worth the stress and economic pain.

damnfantasticdamnfantastic on June 28th, 2013 03:25 pm (UTC)
Heh, no bonus round *yet*.... XD But I do want to apply to grad school & do something relevant to Joan of Arc and/or the Victorians and/or fanfiction. ...but probably Joan of Arc because being a JoA expert would be approximately the most badass thing I can think of. *______*
trickster's childeaubergine_pilot on June 17th, 2013 05:48 pm (UTC)

also I totally still have candy to send you - finances are finally not in the red all the time - though i've misplaced your address. Again.

And I'll be following you on tumblr tonight, probably, haha.
See you later, instigator: Landscape - mirroredoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:25 pm (UTC)

Aaah don't worry about it if it's too much trouble! I can send you my address again, but really, if it's a matter of finances I really understand and won't hold it against you if you don't send it.

Please do! Just...let me know it's you if you use a different username? It's hard to keep track of people sometimes. XD
monsieur le fruitbat: anzu-chanzhajiangmian on June 17th, 2013 08:05 pm (UTC)
WOOHOO WE ARE ALL HERE AGAIN (uh formerly kohl_eyed just fyi? for a while I just thought you hadn't friended me back because you didn't know who I was, which, well, totally acceptable given all the spambots!)

I have Complex Feelings about tumblr and LJ and basically I can't go without either? ahhh it's a problem. anyway. hello! welcome back!

See you later, instigator: Assassin's Creed - high jumpoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:27 pm (UTC)
Oooh yay, I wondered if you'd left LJ altogether when I noticed your old account was struck through. Will definitely be adding you :D The reason I didn't friend you back was, well...I just wasn't here very much and didn't even notice what was going on, sorry.

I'd love to hear your Complex Feelings because I also have a serious case of Complex Feelings here, especially as someone who couldn't stand Tumblr at one point and now uses it more than LJ. Anyway, hi again!
pitry: tortoisepitry on June 18th, 2013 12:14 am (UTC)
You're alive! Alive! \0/

Don't feel guilty! LJ is for silliness too! Hey, I wish my flist posted more picspam sillinesses. I just hate the tumblr platform, but picspams and silliness? bring it on!
See you later, instigator: Kojima Approvesoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:29 pm (UTC)
Ahaha yes, still alive! XD

Yeah, the guilt was just something I needed to work through; it wasn't anyone else's fault, really, just my weird mental associations and projections coupled with procrastination. Tumblr as a platform annoyed me for the longest time, too. It works a lot better if you get a browser fix-it like xKit or something along those lines.
Thene: lost in translationathenemiranda on June 18th, 2013 04:10 pm (UTC)
It's good to hear from you here. I really feel that people shouldn't feel forced to communicate in ways that don't work for them, but at the same time, it's fucking awful to wind up losing people to platform drift. Tumblr really doesn't appeal to me at all, so I'm still, mostly, business-as-usual on Dreamwidth; I say 'mostly' because I'm not always comfortable with public circles so I've been doing some of my recent blogging in private recesses of Deadjournal because Deadjournal is explicitly for 'journals no one wants to read or even host' and that is amazing sometimes.

You should know, I've mostly moved IM platforms recently because AIM was being a cock to me. I'm still available on Gtalk and on MSN/skype, if you ever want to hit me up.
See you later, instigator: Metal Gear Laws - Governmentoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:42 pm (UTC)
I agree with you on both the not-forcing-people thing and the fact that it's sad when contact just disintegrates due to stuff beyond our control. For my part I don't even know for sure at this moment which platform I prefer. Tumblr has started to solve some specific needs I seem to have now, plus a lot of people have moved there. On the other hand, LJ still has a much better commenting and privacy system! I don't know...I might be sort of switching back and forth now. I'm also just BAD at maintaining more than one account equally (you see that with my DW and Plurk)...

Oh, was wondering why I didn't seem to run into you often on AIM anymore. I most certainly do want to hit you up, PM me your usernames on these? (Or if AIM decides to work okay for you at some point, IM me there with them, doesn't matter.) I've missed you!
Theneathenemiranda on June 24th, 2013 05:21 pm (UTC)
Oh duh, meant to add my handles. I'm athenemiranda at gmail.com on Gtalk, athenemiranda at hotmail.com on MSN or Thene A on skype
See you later, instigator: Cao Cao - Ravages of Timeoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 05:41 pm (UTC)
Okay! I um need to figure out which one of these to get or go back to using, ahaha. I technically have gmail if that works for gtalk? I guess it's fine to use with you even if it's meant to be my "official" email account I otherwise tend to keep to "official" stuff... XD
Theneathenemiranda on June 24th, 2013 05:49 pm (UTC)
Yeah, gtalk is in a sidebar of the normal gmail interface, so as long as you have a gmail tab open you're logged in. Just add me as a gmail contact and I ought to show up on your gtalk list.

Edited at 2013-06-24 05:50 pm (UTC)
Melmo: flowers and bookmustntgetmy on June 19th, 2013 12:59 am (UTC)
I already said hi elsewhere but...HI!!

Totally get your guilt about leaving/not using LJ by the way. It has a very specific and narrow set of uses. I know I could probably get the same benefit from keeping an actual journal but...it's so habitual. And like you said - so much a part of me. I can't imagine life without it.

For me, having all the different options (Tumblr, Facebook, instagram, etc) is so overwhelming that I just stick to what I know, even if what I know is dying. (I DO have a Tumblr though and I'll probably get around to following you and using it more regularly sometime in the not too distant future.)

It's nice to read an entry of yours again :)
See you later, instigator: Ishida Mitsunari (SW) - biggest fanoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:51 pm (UTC)

Well, with an offline journal you wouldn't have the interactive part of the experience, though! Which...sounds really funny coming from me who hasn't been around here in months, I know, but. XD And yeah, even if I did leave LJ for good at some point, I could never delete. I might be embarrassed about almost everything up to, say, 2010 by now, but AT SOME POINT IN THE PAST it was real, yo.

Haha, I can't imagine what would happen if I had facebook (I'm staying away from it due to my problem with its shitty ToS). It's true that popular platforms have proliferated recently which isn't bad in itself, but it makes it more difficult to keep in touch or have some overlap. I find it hard to maintain the accounts I already have signed up for with equal attention as it is, not because I don't WANT to but because there are times when it feels like stress (usually times when I'm otherwise stressed out, which tends to be often because I'm always so busy and overloaded with things that need to be done). If you follow me on Tumblr, just let me know it's you, okay! :)

Aww, thanks <3
Melmo: goddess of victorymustntgetmy on June 25th, 2013 02:40 am (UTC)
Haha, yeah, even though I'm pretty much always talking into the void there's definitely a different mindset between writing down something here and something in an offline journal. I kind of like writing like I'm announcing something to a group of people. And oh God...I don't even want to go back and see my earliest entries. (I'll have had this thing for ten years next May, oy.)

For me, Facebook works best in keeping up with people who don't live nearby, but if they opted to use a different social network I would probably abandon Facebook. Cause yeah...very, very shitty ToS. I wish there was a master social media thing, so you could just have one account and pick and choose then kind of stuff you wanted to use it for.

And I just followed you. I'm mel-is-maybe-writing and I never update, ha.
Lucie ~ Dangerous: XOXOdangerouss on June 20th, 2013 12:33 pm (UTC)
I've been basically ignoring everyone who hasn't moved to Tumblr.
Good, I'm mostly ignoring people out of LJ. I don't feel so bad about it now you mention this. :D I don't really care in what form people post on LJ. ;) I just find it convenient finding everything in one place. I've been too lazy to read individual blogs/blog-like sites and felt quite guilty about that. :)

Hello, by the way! :)
See you later, instigator: Johnny Weir - black and goldoudeteron on June 24th, 2013 03:54 pm (UTC)
Aww, I guess it's hard not to ignore someone somewhere with all the platform migration going on. In any case, hi, glad you're still around! Let's enable each other not to feel bad or guilty, then. :D
scarlet_chanscarlet_chan on June 30th, 2013 06:16 pm (UTC)
Hellooo!! I missed your posts quite a bit (I mean, you're one of the few people whose blogs I still read and I've been reading since, probably 2006 after meeting you on mediaminer). I can't complain though, since I do the same exact thing. I popped back in, only to drop back out when things went bad for my family (I can't really talk about it here though, but I did post briefly about it). I did follow you on Tumblr awhile back. I'm called Azuretastic there.