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11 January 2010 @ 08:52 pm
Written reflections  

(2008 - all my stories)

1. First fic
I'd had some in the works since the previous year, but the first one I actually posted was Inaction (Albus/Gellert), which I'd started in February. It didn't see the light of the internet until June.

2. Last fic
Not counting the reposts, And a Sunday's Asylum for All (Birkin/Wesker), posted in early August. Wow, did I have a pronounced period of fic activity last year.

3. Kinkiest fic
I didn't write anything noticeably kinky. Somehow any kink I can think of tends to stay within the realm of ideas, but maybe I should break the ice this year, so to speak. XD

4. Fic that was the most fun to write
Oh, definitely The Properties of Leeches (Birkin/Wesker). The whole idea came almost randomly to me, it was the first time I'd written these characters, and although it's not an especially funny fic, I cracked up so much while writing it. Or maybe just plain cackled. And I still think it came out rather well. It was one of the purest fun writing experiences I've had.

5. Fic that was the most challenging to write
In Fragments Unsettled (Albus/Gellert). That one did not "come quietly". Don't take the challenge of it badly, though: writing it was both hard and cathartic, and I'm proud of how it turned out. I love the distilled form of it, the fact that I managed to streamline subject matter that was quite heavy enough to make it understated. I also like the "unbiased" narrative here.

6. Best fic written as a gift or for an exchange
And a Sunday's Asylum for All was a present for inside_the_veil, and I was rewarded by wondrous feedback. Though On a Limited Time (Birkin/Wesker) was in the name of our RE obsession, too, so maybe I can count that as well. That one was fun all on its own!

7. Most well-received fic
Everything I got quality comments for. I've learned not to judge by numbers.

8. Most overlooked fic
Alright, if we must go by numbers, probably the RE stuff since most people I'm in contact with aren't in the fandom, and my comm for the characters isn't large by any means.

9. Fic that came with the best bunny
It would be a tie between The Properties of Leeches and On a Limited Time. Actually, make that all of the Birkin/Wesker fics since they were new characters for me and I wrote so much for them all of a sudden.

10. Personal favourite of the year
In Fragments Unsettled. I'm still so pleased with that one.

11. Fic/idea/fest/pairing you're most excited about for 2010
You know what would make me excited? Writing more consistently throughout the year and perhaps finishing some of the half-written or outlined projects I have lying around. There are more than I care to admit. XD In terms of possible new pairings, it remains to be seen whether I'll be swayed towards Holmes/Watson this year.

And for those of you feeling generous who would indulge my ego, there's this:

Pick a paragraph (or any passage less than 500 words) from any fanfic I've written, and comment to this post with that selection. I will then give you a DVD commentary on that snippet: what I was thinking when I wrote it, why I wrote it in the first place, what's going on in the characters' heads, why I chose certain words, what this moment means in the context of the rest of the fic, lots of awful puns, and anything else that you'd expect to find on a DVD commentary track.

Here's my supremely unchronological index post if your memory needs refreshing. :D

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Melmo: Wolfstar rocks the house downmustntgetmy on January 12th, 2010 01:04 am (UTC)
Totally agree with the first part of #11.

Mm, I really liked "In Fragments Unsettled" too. For my choice of DVD commentary I'm going to narrow down super-small on that fic to one word: "simple." I really loved the effect of that in the fic. Did you linger over the choice of the word or did it just come to you?
See you later, instigator: Albus/Gellert (by ushitora_icons)oudeteron on January 12th, 2010 10:23 pm (UTC)
Hell yes! That would be a lot of win if we managed.

I'm very pleased someone picked up on that (I also remember you already mentioned it back then, so even better). :D Yes, I lingered. Or rather, the conclusion "just came to me" once I'd reached it, but the word had already appeared earlier (I think the sentence was something like, Gellert always had it simple). What I wanted to get across was Albus's perspective in this part, since I had the shifting "POV" that wasn't so much of a POV in the long run, and to show the remoteness of his understanding of Gellert by that time. As far as he could tell, Gellert was simply the one who had once broken his trust and disappeared. In that section of the story, Albus is dwelling on that, perhaps expecting Gellert to be like himself in that there was "more" to it than what had happened. But then he concludes that, no, there was probably never "more" to Gellert because they were not alike, after all, which he had learned the hard way. Maybe he does it to justify leaving Gellert to "have it simple" in prison in return - in any case, whether or not Albus really believes this, the fact is that at this point he can't know, so keeping Gellert in the slot for "unrepenting traitor" makes things more bearable. It's a safety mechanism of sorts.

At the end, I used the word again because I thought it made the final meaning nicely ambiguous. From DH, we do know that Gellert didn't cooperate when Voldemort came for him. This would hint at the fact that, yes, he had it simple - but it actually meant the opposite of what Albus had been telling himself: Gellert had it simple because he couldn't have betrayed him after all the time he'd had to reflect. (Again, this would mean that he wasn't as supremely unconcerned as Albus had assumed.)

Or you can read it as Gellert simply finally getting what he deserved. With the unbiased style I was aiming for, you're more than free to take your pick. :P

I was abusing the hell out of these possibilities. At the time I wrote it, I was also personally reflecting on how much you could ever know of someone else's motives or if the same thing even meant anything to them just because it did to you. You don't need to know this to appreciate the fic, but it's a bit of background for good measure.

Super-long in exchange for super-small. XD
Melmo: we're in the army nowmustntgetmy on January 13th, 2010 01:33 am (UTC)

Heh, well it was definitely one of my favorite things about the fic. Since seeing your explanating of how you meant this to work I think the first use of "simple" served the POV really well because it's obviously meant to be a kind of sneering, "You can rot in there for all I care," except more eloquently, and obliquely put. As you said, it's a safety mechanism, and it reveals Albus's state of mind.

Ooh, and I loved the ambiguousness of the final "simple." Firstly, in reference to the timing of it. Did he have it simple in his discussion with Voldemort? Or when he got AK'd? I like that you don't know exactly where the story ends. To me, the paragraph break implies that it's Gellert's death, but I like that there's a lack of stage direction there. No, "And then Voldemort raised his wand and Gellert had it simple."

Thanks for shedding more light on this. It was really cool to see your thoughts on it.

Edited at 2010-01-13 01:35 am (UTC)
See you later, instigator: Adrian - Nostalgia by Veidtoudeteron on January 13th, 2010 01:41 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you liked it so much. And definitely - I think Albus wanted to pay Gellert back with the same uncaring goodbye he might have thought Gellert had originally given him, but couldn't carry it through efficiently. After all, if he had, he wouldn't have been dwelling on it in the first place.

That's just the effect I was going for! Seriously, if you asked where exactly the story ends, I couldn't give a definite answer either. Basically I love playing with interpretation, be it mine or the readers'. (By the way, "And then Voldemort raised his wand and Gellert had it simple" cracked me up. Really, I laughed just now.)

Glad to be of service. :D
Melmo: growlmustntgetmy on January 14th, 2010 12:45 am (UTC)
Which is another great encapsulation of character you do (that pans out further throughout the fic) of how Albus couldn't be fully cruel in his heart to Gellert. Or at least that's what I got from it.

And so many great interpretations there could be! At the end I feel like it fades to black on the final moment and all these possibilities crop up for what the final moment was and I love that. (Haha, yeah, it sounds kind of cracky in comparison, doesn't it?)

See you later, instigator: Dr. Manhattan - photographoudeteron on January 14th, 2010 01:40 pm (UTC)
Yep. :D

I'm definitely gonna remember this technique to use again! I actually like open endings, so in a way this comes naturally to me. It's nice to see it work for others, though. (Kind of, yeah. XD)

Melmo: Potterpuff!Remus/Siriusmustntgetmy on January 15th, 2010 12:45 am (UTC)
Ooh, that's good to hear. I'd definitely like to see this type of technique in your fics again.
See you later, instigator: House/Wilson Loud (by enfermeira_chan)oudeteron on January 15th, 2010 07:24 pm (UTC)
I'll try!
rising_larkrising_lark on January 12th, 2010 05:44 am (UTC)
How about this one:

He remembers how he ended up in bed, naked, Remus’s fevered skin pressed against his, even though Azkaban has rendered his memory unreliable.

Tenderness blends with urgency as that familiar bond he shares with his old friend and lover comes alive. Remus gives him everything and takes equally much, until only pleasure remains and nothing matters anymore.

Just before he falls asleep, there’s an apologetic, “Sirius, I can’t stay much longer. Order business...”

He doesn’t care.

And when he awakes later, alone, a cold blanket tangled around him, he wonders when exactly Remus left and why he hadn’t told him.

I was in a R/S mood. :)
See you later, instigator: Toshioudeteron on January 12th, 2010 10:37 pm (UTC)
Wow, this one's old. But all right! I don't think there's too much here besides what it already implies: that Sirius can't stand his ground after Azkaban as well as he would have liked to. Understandably, since they don't get much together time with Remus, he gets immersed in the moment and doesn't want to "think about tomorrow" - even though Remus is trying to let him know where he stands, being the ever-practical one. He doesn't quite get through at the time, though, or maybe Sirius just forgets like he does so many minor things. But the damage is done and the rift between them widens. And we all know where the fifth book leads...

It's even more depressing when elaborated on, heh. Sorry? XD
rising_larkrising_lark on January 13th, 2010 04:27 am (UTC)
Not more depressing than the last three books though :) I just never thought about it from this side. I guess I always kind of saw the relationship from Remus's POV, and never really gave much thought to what it must have been like for Sirius. Thanks!
See you later, instigator: Remus/Sirius2 (the_8th_square & teh_indyoudeteron on January 13th, 2010 01:46 pm (UTC)
You could say that. XD Well, I mostly wrote drabbles about them (shamefully, I have longer unfinished R/S projects on my hard drive, but they always got stuck on something and then I moved on), so it was easy to alternate and write this one from Sirius's perspective, this one from Remus's, this one as more of the old omniscient kind. (I've noticed that I usually take turns like this if I write more than one fic on a given pairing even when they're longer...) I can see why you might just prefer one of the POVs and stick with it, though. Glad this was interesting for you. :D
remecielremeciel on January 12th, 2010 07:53 am (UTC)
In terms of possible new pairings, it remains to be seen whether I'll be swayed towards Holmes/Watson this year.
I must say it is quite an enticing thought! you're a very talented writer and this pairing can be used and re-used with no limits whatsoever.
See you later, instigator: CuteYoshioudeteron on January 12th, 2010 10:38 pm (UTC)
I think it could be interesting, yeah! But first I'd have to read a couple of the books and watch the new movie. Then I can decide. :D